An Example of Hoarding
One day I watched a reality show about people who had been diagnosed as hoarders. They fill their house and yard with everything theyāve ever owned, and eventually life becomes unlivable.
Repeatedly, in real life I have seen people in this condition, and the smell of the place really fills in the overall picture.
In one episode of the reality show, a grandfather, Lewis, had filled every room of his two-story house from floor to ceiling with his priceless treasureāfrom his childrenās 30-year-old homework to leftovers from last monthās fast food dinner.
The house was unfit in every way for human habitationārats, roaches, and moreāand the state department of childrenās services had condemned the building years ago.
Living with Lewis was Lucas, his nine-year-old grandson. The only place for Lucasāor anyone elseāto sit down was in a filthy, ancient recliner, which is where the boy spent most of his hours, including sleeping.
The reality show attempted to help Lewis and the boyāand, of course, the ratings of the showāby bringing in several dumpsters three weeks before the date when Lewis would be evicted, the old home would be demolished, and Lucas would be taken into the foster care system.
The city couldnāt legally force Lewis to part with any particular object, they just made it clear what would happen if the house were not emptied sufficiently to create a home suitable for a young boy.
Regrettably, Lewis couldnāt part with anything, so the dumpsters were carted off empty, the house was condemned, and Lucas was remanded to foster care, despite agonizing and tears from everyone involved.
Subtle Hoarding
As I watched the reality show I realized that I had seen it hundreds of times before. Sometimes it involved the actual hoarding of objects, but it was usually far more subtle.
We parents hoard grudges, resentment, victimhood, power, and more, all creating the illusion of temporary satisfaction, diminished pain, and every other counterfeit for happiness.
And we do this despite innumerable and unequivocal warnings about where weāre headed with our self-deceptions.
If we hoard anything that fails to give us the genuine, consistently reproducible happiness that comes from feeling loved, our hoarding grows, and the price becomes unspeakably high, as in the case of the man who lost his house and grandson.
If we donāt even know what happiness IS, then anything else will do, even if it leads to emotional and spiritual death. If garbage is all we have, it can seem even precious.
In short, we hoard those things that prevent us from finding the kind of life we really desire. Most succinctly, we hoard death, for ourselves and for our children.
With rare exceptions, we donāt hoard consciously. We just hoard whatever our minds and hands can get hold of. Hoarding is almost always quite unconscious, which is much worse, because whatever behavior we cannot recognize we cannot modify, as much as we may need to.
We must clean house now, making room for joy and for an ability to LoveandTeach our children.